i got the most beautiful poem called sand and stone about life. it really toched me. it made me forgive this person that i never thought possible. in the bible it says you must forgive but no one ever said you had to forget. but then again isnt that kind of the point.  well i just got a long shift from work. lotts of people in town. we have been having the orchestra play every weekend and then we have the boardwalk where there are fireworks every saturday nite.you can always catch a ball game at the baseball field or you can go to the race track and do the interactive experience. we hve the imax theater as well. plus there is tons of shopping to do. gee! when i reread  this i realize there are quite a few things you can do around here. but when u live somewhere daily you tend to forget what is around you. we even got the beach not to mention the waterpark. they are remodling our beach and boardwalk too! we will actually have an amusement park as well. you get so caughtup in ur daily life of working and making sure  ends meet that u tend to forget that there is this hole world out there. it is crazy how we just adapt to this cycle of life. then u got the drama mamas and the only lookin for one thing men out there i have not had a real vacation in 7 years. just been livin life working hard trying to better myself. when u get down to it though ur born with nothing and you will die with nothing. so what the hell is all the fus about. materialistic people get on my nerves. yeah i like nice things. but they do not rule me. i just want peace and happiness along with a long vacation and i will be content. o and a tall handsome stranger to share all of this with. o! who am i kidding  i will be in this same state of mind for some time. wishing but not doing. i keep telling myself next week, next month. well i need to realize this is my only life and live it to the fullest. so i am going to clean out my closet throw all the bullshit away and live life again. i use to llove to party but that is not what i am talking about. i am at a point where that is lame and not my cup of tea. so i am gonna live and let live, and you should too!